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my mind is kind of spinning and i'm super-thoughtful right now. yesterday, kingfox and i went to go see apartments for sale. i had convinced him to take a tour of this place; after driving past the old warehouses near the highway for two years and slowly seeing them turned into pretty lofts, i was really curious to see the development and redo up close, so i called and made an appointment, and we went. Dunno if we should have done that, because now I'm looking at my meager finances, mentally scraping them into a little pile, and saying pathetically, "hmm, is this enough to get one of those?"
but mortgages and home ownership is kind of scary, especially since i have so many friends who are very, very sorry that they bought a place in the past ten years. i'm worried about being overextended and burdened, or making very serious poor investments, and i also feel kind of lost and not very capable making these very adult life-moves. i guess seeing something, then striving and planning for it is better than just falling into something, though. Who knows. Anyway, the places were gorgeous; it was kind of hard to imagine myself there, and not refurbishing some crummy old house or apartment somewhere...I wouldn't feel as though I deserved it.





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